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Dear Abby I use to be a little girl sitting on my daddy's lap while he told me how I could be anything that I wanted to be.  He'd look me in the eyes and told me how much he love me and how I was his little angel.  He had such admiration in me like he could be able to mold me into whatever his heart desired.  He looked deep down into my sparkling pools of blue waves I had for eyes and saw just how much potential I had.  I thought his passion for me was normal fatherly love Throughout the next few weeks of my eleven year olds life, I began research my fathers past.  My father surprisingly kept journals.  His father I founded didn't really

Should I smile at the world Cause it doesn't smile back? It's taken all the love And hid it in a sack. Why has this happened To our hearts and souls? Why do we have to adapt, To the dark worlds holes? We walk in the shadows Of what is actually real. But we tend to smile And act like we can deal. When you are left alone In the world so cold and dark, Don't let yourself transform And be branded with that mark.

My heart became cold and hard, when my daddy left. The stare he gave me pierced my heart, When my daddy left. He took a piece of my life puzzle, when my daddy left. It hurt so bad at just age seven, when my daddy left. No matter what was said I cried, when my daddy left. Even today it feels as if he isn't there, I just wish my daddy hadn't left!

Once again I've been left all alone My life has been left uncertain We've all slowly grown. And been left behind the curtain. The curtain isn't a happy place Everything is once remember and once forgot Its covered with dusty lace That keeps you forever caught. If you don't get away Your heart will be torn Your soul will forever sway No matter what was sworn. You will slowly die disgracefully out Along with many others The room is filled with emotional doubt By the worry of their mothers. Your only escape is to love Beyond compassion and compare. Spread you wings as a dove And fly away if you dare Your heart has been torn

Your smile is gone All that's left is the trace It's officially gone And burdened with disgrace The tears rumble down My once soft cheeks And nestle on my frown Where the lonely one seeks I remember the happy times And all that I have left Now my heart begins to bind With nothing left but theft.

Misery Desires The only thing I want to do is cry my pain away.  Sit back and watch my room my home, my person slowly dissolve away to what it may have been attend to be.  Nothing.  Jus the average person who doesn't have talent that stands above them all.  The one who is always jealous of everyone else.  So now I lay down to sleep hoping to drown ever so deep.  I hope this is the end as I curl up in my bed; the tears are rolling down my cheeks burning my flesh.  The pain comes from my heart.  Directly from my heart.  There is no exception for the way I feel.  No reason for the way I feel.  I just wish someone could have the empathy to know

The skies beauty beings to overwhelm Every thought I ever received. My hearts becomes slowing condemned, And does nothing but mislead. My eyes never swelled this much Or flow so many tears, But here I am miserable and such Drowning in my own fears. The grass stains on my jeans Are growing ever so deep Ripping my hearts seams To drown me in my sleep.

I gazed into the horizon trying to determine reality, but I had being fooling myself for too long.  Pretending to be something you are not isn't always the best way to go.  After you left I gave the impression that the happiness you gave me was still there and that I would be perfectly fine and continue out with my life.  But everybody including myself was wrong.  I was filing my soul slowly up with heavy depression that would be practically impossible to get rid of.  Nobody understood the sensation I felt.  My emotions were being ripped from my corpse.  Everything I use to be was slowing dissolving away.  If only things hadn't changed.

I didn't think I could bleed this much.  I didn't think I could feel this much pain either.  But you just couldn't go without those drinks and now my corpse is scattered on the pavement.  You didn't see the truck coming or know that the passenger seat belt broke, but you saw me fly out the windshield and you heard me scream with my last breathes with agony as the blood ran from my body.  I'm sorry that you had to go through this.  I'm sorry I had to die for you to realize your wrongs.  I'm sorry that each day you blame yourself for my death and you have to live each day knowing that  apiece of your life is seven feet under the ground slowly r

CHORUS Hear I lay with a melted heart Trying to determine when I'll part So that when you cry I'll make sure to soak up your sighs And sing you a lullaby goodbye VERSE 1 The world is spinning its revolutions People are falling down No one has a solution To cure anyone's frowns Everyone's heart is aching You can read it in their eyes So much is forsaken So no one believes their allabyes CHORUS repeat VERSE 2 Their kids are being abused And they don't even realize Children are being amused With nothing that amounts to real life Its only getting worse They are eating their lies Troubles are coming w/ each course Their an